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And so having money to provide for his wanderings, with the assistance
of which he has fitted himself as it were with wings, and now being quite
ready for his move, he answers impertinently to all commands, and behaves
himself like a stranger and a visitor, and whatever he sees needing
improvement, he despises and treats with contempt. And though he has a
supply of money secretly hidden, yet he complains that he has neither shoes
nor clothes, and is indignant that they are given out to him so slowly. And
if it happens that through the management of the superior some of these are
given first to one who is known to have nothing whatever, he is still more
inflamed with burning rage, and thinks that he is despised as a stranger;
nor is he contented to turn his hand to any work, but finds fault with
everything which the needs of the monastery require to be done. Then of
set purpose he looks out for opportunities of being offended and angry,
lest he might seem to have gone forth from the discipline of the monastery
for a trivial reason. And not content to take his departure by himself
alone, lest it should be thought that he has left as it were from his own
fault, he never stops corrupting as many as he can by clandestine
conferences. But if the severity of the weather interferes with his journey
and travels, he remains all the time in suspense and anxiety of heart, and
never stops sowing and exciting discontent; as he thinks that he will only
find consolation for his departure and an excuse for his fickleness in the
bad character and defects of the monastery.
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