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JOSEPH: I did not say that the virtue and endurance of one who is
strong and robust would be overcome, but that the miserable condition of
the weak, encouraged by the tolerance of the perfect, and daily growing
worse, is sure to give rise to reasons on account of which he himself ought
no longer to be borne; or else with a shrewd suspicion that the patience of
his neighbour shows up and sets off his own impatience at some time or
other he chooses to make off rather than always to be borne by the
magnanimity of the other. This then we think should be above all else
observed by those who want to keep the affection of their companions
unimpaired; viz., that first of all when provoked by any wrongs, a monk
should keep not only his lips but even the depth of his breast unmoved: but
if he finds that they are even slightly disturbed, let him keep himself in
by entire silence, and diligently observe what the Psalmist speaks of: "I
was troubled and spake nothing;" and: "I said I will take heed to thy ways
that I offend not with my tongue. I have set a guard to my mouth, when the
sinner stood against me. I was dumb and was humbled, and kept silence from
good things;" and he should not pay any heed to his present state, nor
give vent to what his violent rage suggests and his exasperated mind
expresses at the moment, but should dwell on the grace of past love or look
forward in his mind to the renewal and restoration of peace, and
contemplate it even in the very hour of rage, as if it were sure presently
to return. And while he is reserving himself for the delight of harmony
soon to come, he will not feel the bitterness of the present quarrel and
will easily make such answers that, when love is restored, he will not be
able to accuse himself as guilty or be blamed by the other; and thus he
will fulfil these words of the prophet: "In wrath remember mercy."
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